staring at the dust Lyrics – Scrim

staring at the dust Lyrics by Scrim is a new english song by Scrim. The track is released on Scrim’s official YouTube channel, written by Scott Arceneaux Jr., produced by Budd Dwyer, and is part of the album via crucis. Delivering an introspective and emotionally charged performance, the song captures a raw narrative of inner conflict, trauma, and existential questioning, wrapped in dark, melodic hip-hop production.

In staring at the dust, Scrim lays bare his mental and emotional scars through brutally honest lyricism. The song explores heavy themes such as addiction, suicidal ideation, disillusionment with religion, and the isolating consequences of fame and personal loss. There’s a recurring struggle with self-worth and an ongoing search for meaning amidst chaos. With each verse, Scrim deepens the emotional weight, shifting between memories, societal expectations, and the harsh realities of his present. The track ultimately becomes an ode to those who feel unseen, unwanted, and spiritually broken—offering both acknowledgment and empathy.

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staring at the dust Lyrics

[Intro]
(You did good, $lick)
(It’s a Smash!)
(Lonely Boy)

[Verse 1]
I got murder all on my mind
Drugs up in my body
Cash all in my pocket, family bank on me like Friday
Ring up on her finger, things you do for love
But when the parties over and the smiles fade, I’m staring down my gun yuh

[Verse 2]
Who gone tell him, yeah, who gone tell him?
Yeah, who gone tell him, yeah
Who gone tell him that the game rigged?
Tryna get so fucking high, don’t know what pain is
You would think that, living brokenhearted, what I’m trained in
Smoke so much you would think my lungs is what I’m training

[Verse 3]
They tell me that Jesus walked on water
But could he walk on eggshells?
Never saw god in the church, but I saw god off a X pill
As a kid tried to kill myself, could never hold back the exhale
Now mixing fent with the xans was the last time that I slept well, yuh
Rooms tend to get more crowded the more that im making money
Just give some time, they will reveal they do not love me
Taking them subs and hoping that they do not judge me
How can god love me when I heard he don’t like ugly?

[Bridge]
If time heals, then I better live to see 500
Been telling me pray, but i rather take my meds and up it
Camoed out in the woods, but it’s me that’s feeling hunted
I already knew you would hurt me, baby, that’s why I keep numbing

[Verse 4]
Like a thief, I found god on a cross
I can see the hate in my brothers eyes everytime that we talk
Why not him? Why me? I woulda took my loss
Fuck it, take the house, take the money, take the cars
Take the stress, take the hurt, take it all
If he was dying, blow my head, take my heart
Play my part, pop a narc, fade to dark
Devil paid, god saved – what a thought
This for the ones that feel worthless
This for the ones don’t feel worth it
This for the ones that ain’t considered
It’s gonna be okay, let go of the trigger
This one for the sinners

[Outro]
This one for the sinners
This one for the sinners
This one for the sinners

Hey, how you doing?
Happy birthday, I know you’re getting old

staring at the dust Lyrics Meaning

[Intro]
The intro sets a grim and familiar atmosphere. Phrases like “You did good, $lick” and “Lonely Boy” evoke a sense of resigned recognition and self-awareness. The line “It’s a Smash!” contrasts sharply with the somber tone of the track, creating an ironic tension between public success and private suffering.

[Verse 1]
Scrim opens with violent and chaotic imagery, immediately placing the listener inside a tormented mind. The references to drugs, money, and familial responsibility reflect a life weighed down by expectations and self-medication. While love appears present through the image of a ring, it quickly dissolves into despair as Scrim describes the post-party silence where he’s left confronting himself and suicidal thoughts. This verse lays the foundation for the song’s exploration of the duality between outward appearances and internal battles.

[Verse 2]
This verse questions the fairness of the world Scrim inhabits. He confronts the illusion of success, exposing the emotional numbness he’s cultivated through drug use. The lines suggest that heartbreak and pain have become routine, even trained behaviors, and he smokes so much it feels like an intentional form of self-destruction. The rhetorical “who gone tell him?” shows a society that looks away instead of intervening, leaving Scrim isolated in his disillusionment.

[Verse 3]
Scrim tackles religious disillusionment head-on. He juxtaposes the biblical image of Jesus walking on water with the fragile reality of walking on “eggshells”—a metaphor for the hyper-vigilance born from trauma. He admits he found god not in church but through drugs, exposing a shift in spiritual connection from tradition to altered states. The verse becomes increasingly heavy as he revisits a childhood suicide attempt and describes mixing dangerous substances just to feel peace. Fame adds pressure, as rooms grow more crowded with insincere people. The verse ends with a raw question about divine love and personal ugliness, further deepening his spiritual crisis.

[Bridge]
The bridge is a stark reflection on the concept of healing. Scrim challenges the idea that time alone can heal wounds, expressing a preference for immediate chemical relief. Even when surrounded by nature—symbolized by camo and the woods—he feels hunted, suggesting that his threat isn’t external but internal. There’s a grim acceptance of betrayal in relationships, with numbing becoming a defense against expected pain.

[Verse 4]
This verse is the emotional climax of the song. Scrim identifies with a thief who finds god through suffering, an image that challenges conventional salvation narratives. The verse shifts into familial tension, as he perceives envy or resentment in his brother’s eyes. He laments survival, wishing someone else’s suffering had replaced his own. He then offers up all his worldly possessions in exchange for peace, revealing the emptiness material success brings. The verse turns toward the listener in a rare moment of outreach—speaking directly to those who feel worthless, encouraging them to hold on. The reference to fading to dark suggests he still teeters on the edge, but he finds a fleeting sense of purpose in speaking to other broken souls.

[Outro]
The outro continues the dedication to “the sinners”—those often excluded or dismissed by society. The repetition emphasizes solidarity with the misunderstood and outcast. The sudden voice message-style line, “Hey, how you doing? Happy birthday, I know you’re getting old,” introduces a personal, jarring shift—perhaps a voicemail from or to someone dear, bringing a human, vulnerable close to the emotional storm.

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