Older Lyrics – Lizzy McAlpine

[Verse 1: Lizzy McAlpine]
In this verse, McAlpine describes a feeling of being caught in a repetitive cycle, symbolized by the carousel ride. The imagery of the "red moon" suggests a sense of foreboding or change, while her physical discomfort reflects her emotional turmoil. The "curtain coming down" evokes a sense of finality, as if she's reaching the end of a performance that has left her unsettled. This establishes a theme of being trapped in a situation where she feels she has no control.

[Chorus: Lizzy McAlpine]
The chorus expresses McAlpine's disappointment and confusion regarding her expectations of relationships and personal strength. She reflects on her hope that things would improve or resolve, only to find herself still struggling. The line about wishing she was stronger indicates her desire for resilience in the face of adversity, while the loss of her senses highlights her feeling of disconnection from herself and her surroundings. The longing for clarity about "what the end is" suggests a deep existential questioning about her life and relationships.

[Verse 2: Lizzy McAlpine]
In this verse, McAlpine continues to explore her emotional landscape, particularly regarding her mother's aging and the wish to return to a time of innocence. The reference to wanting things back "where no one is dying" speaks to her desire for stability and the comfort of childhood, devoid of pain or loss. She recognizes her efforts to be good in the relationship, contrasting with the difficulties that persist, suggesting a yearning for simplicity amidst complexity.

[Chorus: Lizzy McAlpine]
The repetition of the chorus reinforces her ongoing struggles with feelings of inadequacy and the desire for resolution. By revisiting her earlier sentiments, McAlpine underscores the cyclical nature of her thoughts and emotions, highlighting the difficulty of moving past her current situation. The wish for strength and understanding is palpable, revealing her vulnerability and the challenges of navigating adulthood.

[Outro: Lizzy McAlpine]
The outro encapsulates the overarching theme of uncertainty. McAlpine's repeated wish to know "what the end is" leaves the listener with a lingering sense of unresolved feelings, emphasizing the quest for clarity and understanding in her life's journey. This repetition serves as a powerful conclusion, reinforcing the song's emotional depth and the complexities of growing older.